Hello everyone
I just wanted to make one last update before the big surgery. Although my sister and I were bumped twice, something in my gut tells me it's really going to happen tomorrow.
I'm feeling more and more peaceful, and trying to bring myself to look forward to all of the wonderful things that can and will come from this. First and foremost, my most beautiful, lovely, talented younger sister will have a new chance to live a great live. I am so thankful and blessed that I have the opportunity to provide her with that. I can remember thinking when I was much younger, that I wish I could take away her sickness. I remember thinking "Why does she have to be so sick? Why is it that she has so many illnesses, and my brother and I are perfectly healthy?" I used to get upset with God about this. I used to say that if there was every anyway I could take away even an ounce of her pain, I would do it in a heart beat.
As many of you know, I struggled with the decision to donate my kidney for quite some time. And then I've had to deal with some guilt over that fact, as well. But, I no longer get down on myself for taking the time that I needed to make this life changing decision. That's just how I operate - I think things through, thoroughly. I am so grateful that somehow I found the strength to see myself to this decision. Thank you for that Spirit. I no longer harbor any resentment for the way of things, I see that there is a much bigger picture.
Now, my wishes will be answered. Since I was 10, I have wanted to help Kaylah. Tomorrow, I will finally get my chance
You all have become a primary source of comfort, information, compassion and support. I thank you all, from the bottom of my heart for seeing me through these past few months.
I will go into this surgery with hope, trust and peace.
I'll let all of you know how it goes as soon as possible!!
Also, I had a thought. I feel like I really know some of you well here, so I thought I'd share something. As you may remember, I'm a music major in college. I want to share some of my music with you beautiful people.
Follow this link to listen, you may have to create some kind of account, but it's free
http://soundcloud.com/preludesarahAll my love
<3