Kidney Bean (and everyone else),
I just read your post and am new to the forum, so "Hello!"
Sorry to hear of your experience with donating. I've had a similar experience, only my recipient was my older brother. The donation took place in May of 2003. One week after surgery, he told me, "I wish 'you' had never given me this." I wasn't suppose to be flying, but I took the next flight home and have had very little contact with him.
He smokes, eats poorly, doesn't take his medicine properly and on-time, and recently took a job lifting 80 lbs sacks of dry ink. He wasn't suppose to be lifting over 20 lbs. and it caused a lot of complications. He lives with (off of) my mother and my oldest brother, who is mentally ill.
Now, (right now) he is in the hospital in Des Moines on dialysis and hoping for another transplant, once his health improves, if it does.
Am I angry? Yes, of course. I have always felt as though he felt 'entitled', but I also realize that I can't do anything about it, so I just don't say anything. I was going to go visit him in the hospital last week, but he told me on the phone that, "I'm not going to lose any sleep, if you don't come.", so I didn't go.
He is having heart surgery within the next two weeks as he has 3 valves that are 80% blocked. They keep putting the surgery off because his kidney has failed and he has just started on dialysis. It has been a struggle for his body to get used to dialysis. He had some mini-strokes and mild heart-attacks as well. Not a good situation.
All-in-all, you can't make someone appreciate what you give them, so if you donate, then you must donate freely, knowing that the the possibility of the other person not caring about, or not taking care of, the donation after they've received it, exists.
I hope you find some peace. I think that's the most-important thing for a donor.