Hello all! If you've read my posts before, you know that I'm going to be donating my kidney to my little sister on May 4th. This is all I ever think about. I wake up in the morning, it's there. I go about my day, it's right there. I'm working on being positive about everything, but it's been a tough journey. My sister has been sick since she was eight, this will be her second transplant. Her first transplant is now failing, and she's been particularly sick this past week, we are so very anxious to get this transplant done.
When I pass people I know at school, they say "Hey, how's it going?" and all I can think about is this operation, but I can't go around just blurting out "Oh hey! Yea! Donating my kidney in less than a month! Right, so how are you?" so instead I say "Pretty good, how are you?" and I'm not really present in the conversation, I'm just being nice and pleasant. But inside, there is a hurricane of emotions; sometimes calm, sometimes turbulent.
I have been testing and going through this process since last August. I hope that when the surgery is over, it feels like the weight of the world has finally left my shoulders. I can't wait for my sister to be healthy again. I can't wait to be able to think about something other than this operation.